Yes, this would would be hard to fathom. And may I gently suggest if this is how you feel to not venture any deeper than here.
So, let us ask ourselves again: What if there was no Christmas?
We could not then rely on this one day to treat ourselves and others better. We would have to ask ourselves why we do not show kindness, care and honesty to ourselves and to each other every day? We would have to feel the dishonesty of making one day of the year different and justify with ignorance and/or arrogance our choices for the remaining 364 days.
We would not then have a day to indulge in our guilty pleasures and deceive ourselves that because it is Christmas then it would make everything okay. We would have to ask ourselves why we only allow ourselves to feel deserving of pleasures, decided upon by a date in the calendar–what then is our self worth? We would also have to ask ourselves would indulging truly be okay just because everyone is doing it?
We would not then have a time to do nothing, go on a vacation, rest, be away from life. We would have to look at the way we work and live, if we are doing it in a rhythm that supports our bodies. We would have to ask ourselves if rushing and disregard has become our normal and how that is impacting on our physical, mental and emotional health.
We would not have the excuse to look forward to something better for ourselves or for the world based on hope. We would have to be aware of all our choices and what the consequences are. We would have to stop fantasizing and start living.
We would not have a day to put all our hopes of connection on a pedestal. We would have to be honest as to why connections are lacking in our life and be real in knowing relationships are not constructed in one day, especially not under the influence of alcohol, drugs or mind-altering influences.
In short, if there was no Christmas we would have to be more honest and responsible.